Monday blues

Ah..Mondays..aren't they fun? Rhetorical question: the answer is, of course, no.
I was sick today (not physically, but I was close) and had to go home. Yeah, I suppose that kinda made up for it. I'm trying to find loads of good anime and manga apps for my iPod. The search is relatively alright. I have this app that's so cute!! It's a kawaii face and it makes different expressions when you shake/poke it - cute, I know. I love it. Plus, there's an app called Anime & Manga Amino or something like that and it's great! I highly reccommend it.

Future plans

Yes, I didn't blog yesterday; but it's not my fault. The season is upon us! I had a family dinner, then a homemade anime fest and today I put the decorations up. Yep, it's all getting very hectic. I've still got a few presents to get but I'm sure I'll get around to it.

Today, I was thinking about what I'm going to do after secondary school. I'm definitely going to college, and I'll get a part-time job (maybe at Waterstones..well I don't know, do I?) as well. I'll hopefully move into an flat with a roomate and then get a full-time job as a photographer, preferably for a magazine (not paparazzi, though. I hate them.)
You see, I want to have a job doing something I love, that's why I want to be a photographer. I want people to see what I see, how I see it. I'd love to go to America as well for a job. It'd be quite a lot of hassle but it'd be fun.
One place I definitely want to go while I'm young is Japan. Maybe Tokyo or something like that. I just love their culture and food; I'd need an English-speaking guide, though, otherwise I'd get lost easily. It'd be great to go with a friend or two.

love?

Love - I'm  not quite sure what I believe about it. I don't know if I believe in soulmates or true love, or whether you just end up finding someone who you happen to love strongly.
Now, I was wondering, what is love? I mean, what defines it? The dictionary says:
 1. A profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

2. A feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.

3. Sexual passion or desire. 

4. A person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.

5. (used in direct address as a term of endearment, affection, or the like): Would you like to see a movie, love? 

But then again, what does the dictionary know? It's not a person, it doesn't have feelings.

Love is difficult to describe, I guess. I mean, sure, you can say that love is the strong feeling you have towards someone you care about, but I don't think it really describes it.

And also, at what age can you feel love? I mean really feel it; not just for your family, but for that one person. People always say 'oh, you're too young to know what love means' and I just think, how do you know what I feel? What if I never feel anything this strong again?

And I think that might be what I'm scared of: loving someone but not realising it's love before it's too late and the opportunity has passed (the opportunity has already passed, I think). I don't want to be old and living with 27 cats, but I'm not going to settle for anyone. Would you?

You know when sometimes, you have a dream and it really moves you. You can't forget about it all day, you  know what I mean? Yeah, well, I had one of those last night. And, I'm not sure if it's a good thing or a bad thing, but I've dreams similiar to it before. Anyone else have those? Well, I was so happy to see the person in my dream and I hugged them tighter than I've ever hugged anyone before. I've even chosen them over my favourite anime character in a dream before (yeah, it's that serious) and that's pretty much told me all I need to know.

It's not that I think I'm in love, it's just...I don't know what else it's called.

I think love is the one thing that really confuses me.

The fire inside us

I was in Science class today and I had finished my test paper, so my mind just started wandering as it does. And I got to thinking how fragile we actually are; humans, that is.
If you think about it, it's only a few bones that protect our heart and muscles that stop us from collapsing. There is a delicate balance in order for everything to be as it should. It wouldn't take much for us to become seriously injured and die.
You might be thinking, 'well this is a depressing blog', but I'm taking it in another direction.
Despite our underrated weaknesses, we don't die easily. People will always have this instinct to try and survive, no matter what the situation.
And that's what I love about the human race. Unlike animals, we have this spark in us that won't permit us to just give up and die. We have this fire inside us that keeps us alive.

live in the moment

I believe that you should enjoy your life and live in the moment (no, not YOLO..idiots). It's a pretty good belief, to be honest.
I always try to have fun in the present rather than fretting over stuff in the past or worrying about the future. I mean, of course I look in the future because of grades and college and stuff but I don't spend my time worrying over them. Your best years are meant to be your school years, right?

Never stop laughing.
Papy (my grandfather, shut up), 25th November 2012.

Christmas treats

Ok, so it's nearly Christmas. You know what that means; ordering presents and waiting for them. I myself am not particularly a good waiter. But that's only because I want the presents I've got for people to arrive before Christmas Eve Eve so that I can wrap them and give them to the people. I don't really mind about when mine come, as long as they do, especially my clothes!
But, there's another thing that happens near Christmas...I make lots of Christmas treats for my family and friends (myself included of course)!
This week, I'm intending to make nutmeg and cinnamon cookies with colourful icing. I hope they turn out well and taste nice, and that the icing looks good!
Have fun guys and don't forget to do some cooking!

Otome Kei

I've decided that my fashion style is going to be Otome Kei. If you don't know what Otome Kei is, you're in luck, I'm going to tell you.
Otome Kei means young lady or young maiden. It's basically a toned down version of Lolita (google it). I've chosen this style because it is more mature than Lolita but still has the same style - it's mainly the skirts that I like. I'm going to wear long-sleeved tops with skirts and knee-high socks or tights. I really love high waisted skirts as they give you more shape but make you look thin as well (but not in the gross anorexic way).
I also adore wearing bows as accessories or clothes with bows on. Hats are also a must; I prefer the baggy knitted ones, sometimes with a pompom or whatever you call them on.
The main thing is colour, though. I usually wear clothes that match but with a pop of colour, whether it's the top, bottoms or shoes. I add a bit of my own style to an outfit by wearing high tops or baseball boots instead of otome kei shoes (although I will wear a pair of ballet pumps sometimes).
With my hair, I curl it in a Korean style. I'm hoping to dye my hair a honey brunette and then get some extensions so that the curls are really long. Then I clip one side back so that the top layer of curls don't look too messy.
So yeah, that's my style. If you're not sure what style you are/want to be, just look on the internet, there's something for everbody. Don't be afraid to invent your own style either.

Side note: my iPod charger doesn't work anymore so I'm really annoyed. But, I remembered that I had my docking station to charge it on. I got really scared for a moment because I thought I wouldn't have any music until I got a new charger, scary I know.